I escaped my abusive  marriage March of 2022 with my two younger children.  I thought it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. But the devil was not done.

Jesus tells us in John 10:10

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life and have it to the full.”

On August 29^, 2022, at 6 in the morning, I was awakened by the police at my door telling me that my 17-year-old son had taken his own life.  There will never be words adequate to express the devastation of this tragedy in my life and the lives of everyone that loved him. My heart is broken, the deafening silence in the space that my energetic, beautiful boy should be is empty, until we are joined together in Heaven.

 The ONLY reason I survived is God. 

Maybe you have heard that trials strike in threes, or just when you are drawing closer to God, something happens that pulls you back into old patterns and you turn away.  I have experienced this so many times in the past.  In my youth and early adulthood, I would turn to drugs, alcohol, comfort in another’s arms, lament to anyone who would listen, rage at the universe for “hating” and “punishing” me. 

But this tragedy was different. 

God showed up in a way that I had never experienced before. 

Isaiah 46:4
“Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you, I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”

He stepped in, carried me, held me in His loving arms, picked me up off the floor, brushed the tears from my face and reminded me of all His promises. Promises that the world doesn’t know, nor can it understand until you truly turn to Him for all provision. He sanctified me so that I never even thought to turn to vices in past lives to get through. I felt every single pain, but the Comforter was right there with me, lessening it as only He can. He promises to never leave nor forsake and to always come when called upon in times of trouble.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4

“All praise to God the father of our Lord Jesus Christ.  God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort.  He comforts us in all of our troubles, so that we can comfort others when they are troubled.”

Reader, tomorrow isn’t promised.  Each of our days are numbered and God has a plan for those days for us to love Him and be loved by Him.  I encourage you to surrender your pain to Him and invite Him into to your mind, body and spirit to find nourishment, encouragement, hope and rescue.

Hope for the future.

Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Peace to you,

Angela K